I can remember everything hurtful he said to me two years ago. I can remember his death stare. But I can't remember him giving me any hope that he'd come around. I didn't make something clear in my last post...nameless reached out to me. After everything he said and did to me two years ago, he actually wanted to see me. So I think I'm missing something...why would you want to see a person who you said you wanted nothing to do with, and hadn't bothered to reach out to since? Why would you want to finally talk to that person after not wanting to talk to her for two years?
Guys, do you see my confusion here?
I hate being the bad guy...but I think I have to become one. Just because he's ready to "talk." Doesn't mean that he can expect me to be ready. He's used to me always being there but nope. Not not this time. He did his time. Now I'm gonna do my time. So, I'm doing everything he did to me. I blocked him from all social media (and I may or may not have said some hurtful things before I did so), and I'm refusing to let my guard down. As much as I want to talk to him, and as confused as I am, I'm not going to talk to him. I can't. Like I said in my last post, I don't even know who he is anymore. Let alone what his intentions are. For all I know, he could have a hidden agenda. Does he want to hurt me again? Or does he want to make up for it? I just don't know.
Okay, so for once, I actually want to hear what you guys think. Not looking for advice, but thoughts. Genuine thoughts. If you can relate, tell me. If you would do something different, tell me. I'm curious, and I hope you guys respond :)
Until Next Time.
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