Avoiding the pit

To have even the slightest bit of freedom is pure bliss. Freedom from what exactly? I'm going to try to explain it as best as I can. I think I mentioned, a while back, constantly falling into a pit, feeling the same way over and over again (if I didn't mention it, I'm mentioning it now). When I have something to distract myself with I'm able to tip toe around that pit for the time being or walk past it without looking down at it. With that whole analogy, I say that to say this: even though nothing and no one can actually fill that void, there are still things that can help me (temporarily) forget that it's there.

 For me at least, since I have no answers to finally confront it, all I want to do is avoid it. All I want to do is forget, and give my mind some sort of relief, even if it's only for a little bit. I have to say that keeping myself busy, getting out and doing things, actually helps me. So I guess I'm avoiding this void by...living. I'm not saying the pain isn't there, it is, but I've been able to push it aside. There's just no sense in continuing to question everything craphead did, when I'm obviously not going to get the answers right now. So in the meantime, I'll just be.


Until next time.