As you can see, the theme of this past month has been moving forward. I guess I'm really trying to wrap my head around this concept, and really learn what it means to actually move forward. Does it mean to just stop loving Nameless (You know, that's really what causes all this pain anyway. This undying love that I can't seem to put out for him)? How do I even really heal if I still love him? What is healing in my case? Do I know I'm healed if I'm not crying every time I think about the situation? If I feel peace, instead of old emotions?
I think the big question is: Does all this talk about moving forward mean that I'm in the healing process? I don't know. I think what's really stopping me is the fact that I still love him, like I said. It would be so much easier if I could just stop. Oh my God. That's the freaking problem isn't it? What the heck, man. I guess I was trying to trick myself out of thinking that this whole time, that I completely ignored the fact that my love for him still existed. But now the other big question is: Do I have to stop loving him in order to heal?
Hmm...I'll have to think about that for a while.
Until Next Time.
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