Bob the relationship builder

I mentioned earlier that I had two losses that I wasn't prepared for. With these two losses came a very different side of me. I wasn't getting what I wanted, and I was angry. I was so used to always fixing a situation, and then having everything going back to the way it was right away. What happened between me and this guy was just another problem that I thought I could fix. I figured that if we could just talk about it like we always do, then things can be right again, but apparently talking wasn't an option. So, I was stuck. Completely stuck because I realized that I couldn't be Bob the relationship builder in this one. So, then of course I realized that the term "let go, and let God" had to be applied to this situation, and that was really hard to do because:

Number 1: I didn't want to wait because I was in pain.

Number 2: I was tired of seeing that guy treat me like I didn't exist because it was causing more pain.

Number 3: For the first time, I didn't know what the future looked like, and that hurt most of all.


I realized that God allowed this to happen so that I could finally turn to him, and surrender. So, that I could learn what it really means to trust him. God wanted me to have a blindfold on in this situation, so that I could take his hand, and let him lead. That doesn't mean that I haven't bumped into obstacles because I have, and that's because I listened to what was going on around me. Even though God had my hand, he didn't have my legs. I still let what other people said stop me dead in my tracks (I'll get to that later). Anyway, this blindfold thing is still on. I still have no idea what's going on, and I still have no idea what's going to happen. The only thing that I'm sure of is God's hand.