Hoping isn't a bad thing

I've been a bit busy lately, with packing for college and all, and with the big day approaching I can't help but feel a little sad. I'm just a little lovesick. See, when you love someone so much, it's really hard not to have any hope that they'll come around, but with hoping comes a price to pay; disappointment, and with disappointment comes sadness and yada, yada. The thing that is no matter how many times I've tried to hide it, or even convince myself that it's not there, I've been doing nothing but hoping. Hoping that maybe nameless will come around, today, tonight, tomorrow, sometime before I go off to college...maybe the blind shades will get slapped off one day, and he'll see what a stupid decision he made. And with each day that didn't happen, I wanted to give up on him completely, but what's really annoying is that I CAN'T.
No matter how much I want to hate him, give up on him, and stop caring completely, I can't. Truthfully, I don't want to hope anymore, why should I? I have nothing to hold on to but the memories of the past. But I'm still in love, and that's what's keeping me holding on. 
I'm saying all of this to say that I was ashamed of hoping. I mean, this guy hurt me so badly and I still believe in him? I still care about him as much as I did eight months ago? For what? He's treating me like I don't exist, and I'm pouring the chambers of my heart out. Please, what a waste of time. Give up already. But despite all of that, I couldn't give up.

Hope is not a bad thing, and it's not something you should be afraid or ashamed of having. Yeah, you'll get people telling you to give up, or "there's someone better", or some other discouraging stuff, but they don't get it. They won't get it, until they're in it, and even then they probably still won't get it because everyone's story is different. To the other broken hearted ladies out there: You're not pathetic, you're not crazy, or obsessed, you're just hurt, not to say that you can't ever get to that point of being obsessed because it's possible.
The thing with hoping is that it does have to be controlled, when you let it consume you, when it's all you think about, it can cause you to be pretty obsessive, and in turn make you do things that aren't cute at all. Hope is a desire, it's natural, so we shouldn't have to be ashamed of having it. So, if you want to hope, then hope don't let anyone make you feel stupid for that.